Cheers to Learning

GET OUT OF MY LIFE!
LEAVE, BE GONE!
NEVER RETURN!!

I deleted you from everything.
You find a way back in.
My mind erased the photos that I thought would never end.

You make me want to vomit,
That's how nauseous I feel.
When you're around,
I feel I've found
The one thing that should have never been!

BUT I HAVE TO FORGIVE YOU
Or this will carry with me forever.
How can I do that when you just make me sooooo fucking angry?!
I am letting myself think about it and maybe I shouldn't,
But at least we know that I'm not over this.

Too much hurt and pain leads to not being able to forgive
God forgave so I need to learn.

Cheers to learning.

Thank You For Being My Friend

You remind me of someone
I knew a while ago,
They had a sharp wit
And went with the flow.

But they left so quickly
My eyes they did not phase.
I thought I'd be fine,
But my heart was ablaze.

I guaranteed you'd follow
His once sought out course,
But here you are
And making you stay, I don't have to force.

You make me smile,
Life is good when you're around.
You are a close friend;
I am glad it was you I found.

The laughter and tears you've helped mend,
A blessing to me you have been.
I couldn't have done it without you in the end;
Thank you for being my Friend.

Dedicated to A.R.M.