Could you?

I don't want to be like her
I don't want to be a shadow of what she once was
I would rather not be annoying, bitchy, or judgmental
And I obviously do not wish to be perfect for your parents.

So could you start communicating with me more?
Could you start answering my calls and texts?
Could you start being considerate of my feelings?
And could you start standing up for me in front of your parents?

I ask all of these things so that I won't be her
And you won't have another bimbo girlfriend,
But a passionate friend.

Please Answer

People leave.
Most people leave things behind
Things like memories, love, passion,
Ideas, heartache, friendship
Things that cannot be retrieved unless sought.

Most do not come back to search
They piddle away anything useful and meaningful
And search for something or someone else
Because it is easier to find new than repair old.

I do not leave.
I try not to leave good things behind.
The bad can gladly fade away.
The good, I tend to keep my grip on.

Like you, my dear friend.
How many times have you said you wanted to see me
Only to never answer my phone calls
Or my ideas of getting together?

I love you.
But sometimes, you bite off more than you can chew.
Luckily, I know how that can happen
And I try to be patient, but it can hurt.

Please answer next time.


Dedicated to M.G.

He Once Loved You

It's like a painful friendship
One you want to keep, but just can't
It's a familiar song, a forgotten card
It's a storm while driving
It is the single most thing you cannot explain

A love so lost that it cannot be found
Not even in another form
A stranger awaits you
But the familiar face stares you down

You can't help, but wonder
You think, What if?
A cold, harsh reality beats on your heart
And you wash your face in the present
Hoping the past's lingering stench disappears
With the memories you've buried so deeply away

You cannot touch them
Unless he draws them out of your brain
Like a cat to a saucer of milk
He sheds his skin and melts back into that same man
The man you knew before and dances his dance
Before your eyes so that you may know
He once loved you.

Legos

If there's anything in life that I want,
It is to be with you
And not just in a physical sense
Or an entitlement,
But in your surrounding aroma,
In your soft voice,
In your warm gaze.

I just want to play Legos with you all day
I want to eat at Outback for every dinner
I want to lounge in the lazy river at Geauga Lake
And then sumo wrestle you with my tube!

I want to be Buzz and you be Woody
I want to scream 80s hits in your car
I want to cuddle in your bed and take afternoon naps
I want to make us smores at our bon fires

I want to paddle boat with you at the lake
I want to buy you things like a captain's hat
I want to go on walks to talk about deep things
I want to talk on the phone with you before and after work

I just want you and all of you
I want your smiles, your old man shoes, your cologne
Your kisses, your laugh, your mustache, your voicemails
Your CDs, your NBA2k, your attitude, your friends,
Your heart, your love, your Legos...and I mean the last one.

I want you to be you and be a strong, fun you
You deserve it, for you are one of the best people I have ever met.
We fit well together, we love each other,
I can't wait to spend more time with you!
Under Pressure, Almost Queen, Marriage
I'm sorry. I'll try to stop.

I love you so much.
Please know that I would never do anything to hurt you.
You are the love of my life.
Now give me some of your Legos.



Dedicated to K.J.L.